March 10 marks the fourth year of the founding of Heart’s Content, the original anime blog of House of Sixten. It is also my birthday: I turn 31 today. My first impression is that 31 seems a bit old, especially for someone who hasn’t started a family and has done nothing but fail at achieving his dream (of becoming a professional artist, naturally).

I’ve done nothing but go to school for Computer Science and work as a Systems Analyst in a company where my boss isn’t even as cute as Nareru! Systems Engineer‘s Ritsuka Muromi, for the 10 years since I lost my only art-related job in 2001.

In the four years since the starting of this blog, I have attempted to work on projects with Jason, Owen, Flak, Sam, and Muffin, and have attempted to win a contest at Star City Games. I have dropped out of each such project, no doubt impressing upon them exactly why I have done nothing but fail.

I can’t finish any project I start. My work isn’t good or fast enough. “I’m too busy” and “US Immigration sucks” are just excuses. If I was good enough to be a professional artist, I would have made a way by now.

But life is not for complaining. I may not have reached my dream, but at least I am closer.

Without the lessons learned from my failures, the successes I have had would not have been possible. Miao Diary is a direct result of the breakup of me and Jason, and Lotus Cobra is Evil is the spiritual successor to Owen’s failed Moe Moe Ravnica project. My speed and skill are improving. Four years ago Hinano and I were about even in skill, and now I have higher ratings than her on pixiv (although that may be because I draw Toho and she doesn’t.)

Most importantly, the dream is still alive.

I will only truly fail if I give up.

Here is my project from this quarter in school.

It is partially appropriate.

By the way, that’s not really a cake. Beneath the icing, it’s actually a cluster of cupcakes.

10 Responses to “31”

  1. Flak says:

    Happy birthday, happy blog birthday, and I’d say that list of collaborators shows yaruki. At least for my part, when CCY17 fell apart, I didn’t feel like that indicated at all some sort of Reason Why You Fail. I think mostly the project sucked.

    Keep everything up. Keep dropping project, if it means you’re starting them or working on them. I love your art and I love your blog. Rock on!

  2. Flak says:

    (Also, awesome video!)

  3. aaa says:

    Hey! March 10 is my birthday as well!

    Happy birthday man! And Lunasa looks like it has a lot of potential!

  4. falkonus says:

    happy birthday, dude. dont worry, you’re not old yet.

  5. Author says:

    I just wanted to say that Miao Diary was, in fact, completed, and I think of it as a success. And Lotus Cobra is hilarious, even though I never played whatever game it references.

  6. Eefi says:

    Happy belated birthday πŸ™‚

  7. Happy birthday and ganbatte!

  8. Samukun says:

    Happy birthday. That’s a very cool app.

  9. GoldenSunfreak says:

    Happy belated birthday! Keep on doing what you do; I would hardly call you a failure at anything. Everything takes time, but it will eventually happen, so ganbare!

  10. Jakob Dam says:

    Big happy birthday!

    Well, I visit houseofsixten almost daily, to see your great works, and also to see if there’s something new πŸ™‚

    Like you, I’m 31 yo, and an aspiring graphics artist. I have propably been very lucky to be where I am now; I make graphics for computer games in Denmark (unfortunately, we don’t do manga – I’d have LOVED to do some of the manga I’m playing around with in my sparetime for our games… but I’m sneaking a little manga-style in through the backdoor, ie. for proportions (chibi-style) and facial expressions… if our game designer doesn’t notice, that is…). πŸ˜€

    Also, I’m teaching other people in photography and photoshop, as I’ve been a photographer for many years (yay, dark chambers and flammable fluids – finally gone, welcome go-happy digital era). πŸ™‚

    Oh, and then I play magic, which is how I got to know your works πŸ™‚

    I must admit, that my heart bleeds a little from reading what you wrote here; you ARE talented. I’ve often seen you write very modest about your skills, but the truth is, that you really ARE good!

    Sometimes you point out that there’s other who’re better, but hey – there’s always someone who’s better, and it’s not always the best who’re lucky with career and job.

    The only thing I think that you do wrong, is that you need a little more self-confidence and most of all, a nice gallery.

    Truly, you have been a nice inspiration for the way I draw manga; and I really feel that I have to give something back to you.

    Feel free to write (I think my e-mail should be visible to you here), I’d love to get in touch with more talents around the world, as Denmark is kind of a small place to network with other artists πŸ™‚

    And once again – happy birthday, I hope this day is full with sunshine (as opposed to current weather in Denmark, where it’s 5 ΒΊC and very rainy). πŸ˜€

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